i am not a popcorn fan. its not a recent thing or what but rather i've always not been a popcorn fan just that i do not voice it out. eating popcorn just isn't nice. it isn't that satisfying. it is tasteless and makes me feel like i'm eating some clouds. they even look like clouds! only that these "clouds" are somewhat yellowish, as if aged or something. eating popcorn to me is just like...eating air. exactly like the phrase that some hokkien or teochew or whatever dialect came up with...jiat hong (eat air).
its the same with munching on nachos. although the cheesy cheese that comes with it is rather appealing the nachos themselves just don't make the cut. nachos are tasteless as well, similar to popcorn but they sure don't feel like eating air. rather it feels like eating oversize sand grains; tasteless and crunchy and grainy. besides it is not healthy to eat too much of nachos as well.
eating a hot dog bun is just different. yes, totally different. the satisfying feeling that you get when you sink your teeth into the bun, then the hot dog and swallowing the whole warm bite and feel it sliding down your throat (of course chewing it well first. we don't want to choke do we). its good. uh huh its real good. its the real stuff, unlike eating popcorn or nachos.
there're tons of things on my mind now. firstly is that stupid uncle of mine who only knows how to scold me. if i do not call my grandma or go see her, its my choice, so shut the fuck up. better yet, you might want to go fuck yourself or fuck a spider depending on which you prefer. this is the modern singapore alright and we have the right to do whatever the fuck we want and you should keep that foul mouth shut. if you can't do that, i would be glad to help you keep it shut however my preferable method would be to use ultra strong super glue since its one hundred percent guaranteed to work. yeah, so fuck you uncle. you stupid fucking piece of useless shit.
the next thing is that army's approaching, in which i will be entering on next friday. hopefully everything goes well and my wrist will be ok by then. it would be better still if the army personnel does not think the old injury is serious enough to drop my pes status. ah! i don't want to work as some clerk or anything related to boring jobs. that's not army, that's mindfuck. it drives you crazy and makes you detest the army.
i've also sent my applications to NUS, NTU and SMU. let's just now kick back and relax and see which university decides to accept me. i haven't paid the appplication fees though, hehehehehe. so people, please remind me alright? bomb my handphone with calls or messages if you must, but please remind me! i'm terribly forgetful.
i'm currently listening to canon in d. somehow or rather it soothes the savage beast (sounds cliche, but its useful so who cares?) in me. probably i'm getting more easily angered (especially by that fucked up uncle). i guess i should throw all these negative thoughts to the back of my mind and enjoy my numbered days! eleven more days (excluding today) before i become a dog...hai. life can't get any worse now can it.
life's b-o-r-i-n-g now. real b-o-r-i-n-g. i stay at home everyday and play games, while counting down my numbered days before i go off to the dog army. roughly three more weeks or so left on my available-to-have-fun status. yeah, in there i'm trained to sit, sleep, eat, shit and all sorts of "tricks". how interesting..and i couldn't ask for more. (in case you don't get it, i'm just being sarcastic)
maybe i should just challenge myself to a mini contest. a contest to see how long i can stay at home without going crazy. the prize would be...a sane mind. i haven't mention about the fact that i have not applied for any university courses yet, honestly its a big question that is becoming a big problem for me to grapple. there's many things i want to do and with so many choices, simply speaking i'm spoilt for choice. i guess i shouldn't rush it or take too much time. just hope that i can make a wise enough decision that balances between ambition/dream and practicality.
i recently just picked up playing ragnarok online, so if anyone is playing as well, care to join me? my in-game name is hinamoto (don't ask me why i have such a name or whether if it sounds gay, i don't know myself either). easy to play but somewhat boring to train on your own.
maybe i'm just wasting my life away. gah. anyone got any ideas (good ones please, shitty ideas will be duly ignored) what can a person do on this shitty little island? i feel like i suck now.
i went to the open houses of the respective universities recently, NUS, NTU and SMU with pei wen. my first grouse is that NUS and NTU are big; too big in fact that i had a hard time finding my way around. firstly the signs are redundant and they don't help you to get to where you want to go. by redundant i mean, there are signs to tell you what places there are (etc the school of mechanical and aerospace engineering) but there are no arrows to point the bloody direction. so how the hell would a potential student like me find the place? bad points for both nus and ntu. besides the buildings look old and rather run down.
also, many friends who are now studying in nus have complained that the system there sucks. although i'm not sure what system they mean... but anyway another bad point too for the number one university in singapore.
smu, on the other hand, was rather impressive. probably because it was as established as the two other universities and hence, a relatively newer and modern site. another reason is probably also because that the campus wasn't as big as the other two. however, what made me take a second look at the place is because it was relaxing and my kind of place for studying.
anyway, i still have no idea what to apply for...have to think about it pretty soon. hai
i was doing some minor spring cleaning of my room earlier today, and i happen to come across some of my photos that were left forgotten in the drawer, collecting dust, cobweb and all sorts of nasty nonsense. since i had nothing much to do, i flipped through them to see what photos they were. basically they were photos that stretch all the way back to when i was in secondary one. maybe the photos jolted back some long forgotten memories, but they sure are nostalgic.
humans are sure funny creatures. within the span of a few years, our looks, attitudes and behaviours can take on a drastic 180 degree change. looking at myself, i'm actually quite amazed at how much my looks, attitude and behaviour have changed..maybe not so much of the behaviour part since i'm still a darn lazy bum and full of shit guy. but yes, i've changed much. i looked like a total nerd and twit last time, less twit-ish and nerd-ish as the years passed and now, this current look. many probably don't know what the hell i'm talking about but those who are closer to me, would understand me clearly. in short i look fugly last time. attitude wise, i was a hardworking and studious boy who thought all i had to do was study and study and study. introvert at heart and not easily open to others, it is very different now. now, studying is not everything, although of course it is important, but making sure the relationships are well and healthy are of equal importance as well.
anyways i look so much better now and i've grown more mature as well. ok i can't remember what else i want to blog about. time for the oscars!
a fine day today it was, with nothing much to do. actually there was. firstly i had to go down for an interview for a job at guess which in the end, i rejected it because i'm entering the dog army soon anyway. besides most of my friends have been telling me to go enjoy myself now before entering, so i willing let myself be influenced by them. hehehehe.
met pei wen in the afternoon and we went to watch underworld : evolution. the show was not bad, kate beckinsale was hot, there were tons of action, of which 85% were gory with heads being splitted by axes, swords and all manners of sharp objects. lots of impaling and piercings and the whole show was practially bloody. half the time, the movie showed kate's character being covered in blood. not too shabby and it was a wonder that i was able to sit through the entire movie. seems that monster slaying isn't as scary as torturing people or killing them.
i guess i'll be watching more movies this month since i'm just whiling the time away. have to pick up some things/skills while i'm at it. blog off for now.
ok, so today is the fateful day that i got my results. not too shabby, with a A for mathematics, A for physics, B for chemistry and a B3 for general paper. i just felt that i could have done a little bit better. i probably screwed up somewhere. am i happy? not very i guess when i consider so many people around me crying and mind you, they aren't tears of joy.
before receiving my results, i strangely did not feel very uptight. maybe a little nervous but that's all. when i did receive it and had a good look at it, i felt no stirrings in my heart. probably because i believed that whatever you get is the result of how much hard work you put in and all. i was quite indifferent about the whole thing. after all life still has to go on...
having said that, i still could not help but feel that i could do something for my friends and those around me. but i didn't because i did not know in what way i could help them out with. in a manner of speaking, a whole new road lies ahead of me, and i'll move forward on it. things change, but somethings just cannot change. i won't allow it to and i'll do anything in my power to make sure they stay the same.
national service is approaching, followed by a further education in university and after that, working life for me. guess that's growing up.
